Meant to Dance For God.

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009.
Sunday, December 28, 2008

I feel as though a chapter of my life is just about to end
and i did not really take a look back to appreciate God,
and for all the wonderful things that he has done for me.
Though there were a few glances,
i still think that what i did was not enough justice.

I still love God,
so much.
I miss him.

and I have been disappointed in my friends.
i thought they would watch my back but they did not.
especially in the one place that i grew up in,
and the one place i would never expect to be outcast-ed.

Maybe it was just me to expect too much.
but i feel as though i do not belong there anymore.
No warmth.
No friends to really have.

I really do not know what to do already.
I gave and poured my heart and soul into that place,
hoping that they would do the same.
But i guess i was wrong.
for that,
i feel very disappointed.

Have i been too quiet?
too naive to think that others can do the job that i was meant to do?

I guess that is why God called different ones into place,
because of our different personalities,
destinies and callings.

I know that i may not have been the best christian this year.
But i want to grow,
and i want to know more.
what it feels like to fall away,
what the lost feels like.

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Someone told me this before:

'The people who see the Doctor are only the Sick.'

In this same way,
only the lost would want to be found,
and only the sick and needy would want God.

I totally agree with that statement without a doubt.

During this time when I was lost,
I vented my troubles and anger on my studies.
In the end,
I managed to get top 5% of my school.

I never had good results before.
I always wanted to strive towards it.
And once i got it,
It felt as though it's all meaningless.
like a step was out of place,
and that i had came back to square one.

Sure i had good results,
but at the end,
what's next?
Emptiness was just inside,
and meaningless purpose lingered.

Now,
i really want to get back on my feet,
regardless of what it is.
I love God with all my heart,
and not even the world can stop me from loving him.

I ran away from him many times,
and i won't make the same mistake again.

I want to hold him like never before again,
to feel his embrace,
sniff the scents of his holy robes,
have him to tell me stories and
carry me when I'm tired.

This is a new Chapter of my life.
I'll live it like how God would. (:

amen.

danced for Christ.
9:49 PM

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Dancer for Christ.

Jump Around.

SOMEBODY.GET.YOUR.PRAISE.ON.

Credits

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009.
Sunday, December 28, 2008

Dancer for Christ.

Jump Around.

SOMEBODY.GET.YOUR.PRAISE.ON.

Credits

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009. Sunday, December 28, 2008

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009.
Sunday, December 28, 2008