Meant to Dance For God.

To have or not to have?
Saturday, June 02, 2007

- Get Your Own

today was a really,
really,
fine day.
i am glad that it is.
i get to go to church,
study math,
learn something,
and actually PRACTISE and do my subjects!
ok.
at least one.
i's glad that i was able to go for FUEL today,
due to last week.
i didn't get to go last week due to my folks.
they actually told me that they're not gonna
allow me to go for FUEL until O's.
hahahas.
oh wells.
however,
today,
I GET TO GO. =))

seeing God,
seeing things,
and realising things too.
i realised that i have not been sensitive to people's feelings around me.
perhaps it's something about the new year,
how different i am this year.
that i'm still adjusting to my surroundings and all.
i used to be very careful about the things i say,
and would also be very self-conscious about my actions,
when i'm around people,
so that i won't offend them and what nots.
however,
it's still not an excuse for me to be insensitive to people's feelings.
and also,
not thinking.
still lead by emotions and all.
however,
all in all,
it's a learning process.
i'm gonna take it with a smile. =))

deep within me,
i have no idea what's going on.
i still think about him.
i still hope that we would be like what we used to be,
chatty and comfortable with each other,
not the other way around.
maybe i really do like him.
which is RARE.
i usually have crushes that come and go.
but,
i realise that nowadays,
majority of the guys don't appeal to me that much anymore.
and i don't appeal to guys as much.
that part,
i don't mind.
it's the "majority of the guys don't appeal" part that kinda gets me worried.
somehow,
i'd rather go GAGA over guys once in a while like last time.
however,
that's not the case.
ever since i met him,
it just changed and turned the whole situation around.
perhaps asking God for us to be friends is too much.
by right,
i shouldn't even be thinking about it,
because i gave it to God.
still,
it's a feeling that i am still feeling.
it's not that feeling of guilt or regret.
it's that feeling that,
HE'S NOT TALKING TO ME.
and how much i would give,
to hear his voice again,
and just for him to be comfortable around me again.
there's a price to pay when we all follow God.
if our friendship is the price i have to pay,
i would still give it up for God,
because i learnt this the hard way,
in the times when i'm just really lonely.
and that is,
God is really your best friend.
i really learnt to be quiet and just talk to him,
even during your ups and downs.
quite recently,
i've been thinking about so many things.
it's like a never ending train of thought,
that floods my mind the whole day,
or rather,
most of the time.

i need my encourager.
at this stage,
if God allows me to have a BF,
i would get one,
who loves God a lot,
and does not put me before God,
being accountable to his leaders and God,
and is just someone who knows his priorities well,
and knows how to humour me,
and one who always wants to glorify God,
honour him,
and most definately is one after God's heart,
no matter how hard the journey is,
be willing to go through things for him.
no doubt about it,
i will get a BF who loves God as much as i do,
so that we would be able to not only walk in our relationship,
but also,
help each other in our walk and relationship with God,
that we would tell each other testimonies and stories about God's love,
grace and awesome-ness in ours lives.
and on top of that,
we would talk about heart felt problems,
with no secrets between us.
i'm not asking much.
it's really true.
that's what i really ask from my BF.
i really believe that the first step for me to really be able to love someone,
in that way,
is for that person to love God and is true to God,
no 2nd places.
just one seat for God,
no more,
no less.

i believe and know that there is someone who is like that.
i really hope that i'll get a BF soon.
of course,
that's if God allows.
i really do want to meet him soon.
so that i'll get emotionally attached to him first.
hahas.
addicted to him.
rather.
of course,
if i will do what God wants me to do.
still,
putting God first,
no matter what he wants me to do,
i will somehow do it.
no compromise to that. =))

danced for Christ.
11:24 PM

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Dancer for Christ.

Jump Around.

SOMEBODY.GET.YOUR.PRAISE.ON.

Credits

To have or not to have?
Saturday, June 02, 2007

Dancer for Christ.

Jump Around.

SOMEBODY.GET.YOUR.PRAISE.ON.

Credits

To have or not to have? Saturday, June 02, 2007

To have or not to have?
Saturday, June 02, 2007