Meant to Dance For God.

all in all.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Public holidays are over.
back to school tomorrow.
in a way,
i'm happy.
because stoning at home really gets you restless.
even asking my parents if i could go out after i finish studying,
they're like,
"you've been playing and resting for 2 days.
you need to study!"

argh.
study.
friends.
family.
God.
oh. wait.
God ain't a burden.
just,
things between me and God.
yep.
school.
yah dah yah dah.
hmmm.
things have been falling out of place.
especially in the area of friends.
i just don't understand how a friendship
could have turned out so awkward in a matter of time.
used to be close,
but now,
nothing.
nothing from what we used to be last time.
i miss the times.
i miss the friendship.
i miss the comforting presence of my dear friend.
as much as i know he's going through so much,
he doesn't let me know what's going on in his life.

i don't know what else is there to do.
many things have happened this year.
and it all wasn't pleasant.
things just keep coming.
keep getting spiritual attacks.
sometimes,
i just feel so helpless.
so useless,
like everything or anything that i do,
has no worth,
no value,
no purpose.
but that's a freaking lie.
that's not what God wants me to think,
or even have in my head or heart.
feeling helpless i may be.
but i still choose to trust in God.
know that he is in full control of all things in my life.

all these times,
all the while,
i've always been hanging on for God.
but it's time that i let go,
and let God carry me.
sometimes i ask myself,
how much longer can i carry on in this life,
how much longer can i take all these.
why not end my life now?
why should i stick around to find out?
well.
because God believes in me.
he believes i'll make it.
and if God believes in it,
so will i.
i know that God has seen me through everything.
and if i end my life right now,
all of the moulding,
all that i have been through with God,
would have been wasted.
i will live on for God.

God isn't my only source of strength.
friends and family,
have both played their role.
all of them have kept me going on for such a long time.
tired i may be.
but i will run the race.
and i will end it well.
i will do what God tells me to do.
i will make the best out of it.
i will be someone that God has called me to do.
i'm not just merely saying it.
i'm declaring it in my faith.
my deep,
strong faith,
that God has placed in me.

amen.

danced for Christ.
1:49 PM

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Dancer for Christ.

Jump Around.

SOMEBODY.GET.YOUR.PRAISE.ON.

Credits

all in all.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Dancer for Christ.

Jump Around.

SOMEBODY.GET.YOUR.PRAISE.ON.

Credits

all in all. Tuesday, February 20, 2007

all in all.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007