Meant to Dance For God.

God, why is the sky like that?
Monday, October 23, 2006

God has been good.
amen?
i can testify of his goodness.
obviously,
EXAMS ARE OVER.
and best of all,
I'VE CONQUERED THEM!
why?
because i have Jesus by my side,
guiding me every step,
along the way.
and yes,
i did study hard and smart,
trying not to freak out,
neither to get stressed.
however,
it wasn't my doing,
it was God's doing,
who kept me so calm throughout the exams,
or rather, the storm.
thinking back,
he assured me of my future again,
in that period of time,
that mine was equally important
as other people's.
and were all made
with the same plan.
Dear Lord,
thank you,
so much.
for everything. =)

this reminds me of the song
"still".
it goes like this..

"when the oceans rise and thunders roar,
i will soar with you,
above the storm.
Father,
you are king over the flood.
and i will be still,
know you are God."

it means,
that when things go really wrong,
you choose not to stumble,
but choose to continue to look unto God,
to be reminded of his goodness,
knowing that he is bigger than your problems,
knowing that he is in full control of everything.

taking a step back,
i know that
i've grown in my walk with God.
i've never been happier,
knowing that God has always been with me,
never left my side for a second or moment,
walking with me,
side by side.
i've been smiling from my heart.
from my soul,
from my spirit,
for the Lord has given me the Joy of the Lord.
and i can share love,
joy and laughter to people.

i miss being me.
i couldn't really smile for a moment.
because i felt distant from God.
but now,
it's all different.
even though i could not sense God always,
i remained calm,
and waited on him.
indeed it's an honour to do that.

i wanna share what happened on Friday,
20 Oct'06.
i'm not sure if it's the correct date.
but it should be.
i was on my way to church,
for Leadership Cell.
on my way to the bus-stop,
i sensed that i should pop
in some music into my ears.
so,
i scrolled my ipod,
and the song,
"Jesus only you can satisfy"
caught my eye and heart once again.
with that song,
God started to speak to me.
it was rather cute.
he came,
like a soft,
gentle breeze.

"Jean,
what's on your mind?"

"oh, nothing much.
i just feel so at ease,
so joyful. =) "

"i'm happy for you. =)
Jean, ask me why is the sky so magnificent?"

"wha..whatt..?
okaes..
why is the sky so magnificent, God?"

"it's because the sky is always there,
most of the time, blue and clear.
lately there has been a haze,
making the sky blurr-y,
making the sky seem grey-ish.
just like your walk with me.
even though your paths may seem unclear,
and sometimes,
you can't feel me,
or sense me,
but just like the sky,
regardless of how bad the haze is,
the sky is always there.
it never changes.
just like my love for you,
of how precious you are to me.
i will always be there for you.
walking by your side,
guiding you,
like i've always been doing.
=) "

after hearing that,
tears welled up in my eyes
and as i could not hold them back,
tears began to roll down my cheeks.
and i was at the bus-stop.
people must have thought i was crazy or something.
but i didn't care.
i have never heard from God like that
in a very long time.
i missed God.
i missed God,
Very Much.
i missed him talking to me like that.
i missed his presence.
i missed his voice.
i missed his warm embrace.
i missed delighting myself in him.
i missed myself, being in his presense.
i missed what is is like, really being happy,
so full with Joy.
i missed being in love with him.
i missed being consumed by his love.
for his love has captivated my soul,
heart,
spirit,
mostly,
my all.

I missed it all.
what it is to step into the King's chamber,
to be at his feet,
to worship him,
to love him,
to feel his embrace,
for him to love me,
to hold me,
and to tell him how much he means to me,
and also, for him,
to tell me how much i mean to him.
I'm loving God more and more each day.
i'm getting more hungry for God,
to know him more,
to draw closer to him,
to be deeper in love with him.
i missed being a fool for Jesus.
i may be silly.
i may die for my faith, one day.
i may be called a freak.
i may be a fool.
but i'll do it all for jesus,
because it doesn't change the fact
about how much i love him,
how much i would give to tell the world that i love him,
and that he's the only true way to happiness,
the only true way to life,
the only true way to the solutions and answers
in life.
the only person that can tell you,
what is your purpose and destiny,
what you are on this earth for.
everyone has a purpose and destiny.
we're not here for nothing.
we're created with a meaning.
created for greatness.
created to love God,
and created for God to love us.

even though there are some of us,
who may not know God,
who may even hate him,
or don't even want to draw close to him.
i don't care what you say.
but all i know is,
God will always love you.
and had always walked with you,
watched you grow.
and nothing will change his love for you.
he wants to love those that feel unloved.
he wants to heal the broken hearted.
he wants to lift you above your problems,
to overcome your problems.
he wants you to live a life of meaning
and purpose.

if you think i'm born a christian,
you thought wrong.
even though i was born in a christian family,
it was my decision to follow Jesus,
and it was not easy,
to have come this far.
all i know is,
it was because of the grace of God,
that i'm able to live until today,
that i'm able to smile and laugh,
and for you people,
to know the Jean today.
none of this would be here today,
if it weren't for God.

i live for Jesus.
what about you?

danced for Christ.
12:14 AM

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Dancer for Christ.

Jump Around.

SOMEBODY.GET.YOUR.PRAISE.ON.

Credits

God, why is the sky like that?
Monday, October 23, 2006

Dancer for Christ.

Jump Around.

SOMEBODY.GET.YOUR.PRAISE.ON.

Credits

God, why is the sky like that? Monday, October 23, 2006

God, why is the sky like that?
Monday, October 23, 2006