Meant to Dance For God.

my faith is the thing that keeps me going.
Thursday, February 23, 2006

beware.
this entry may shake your faith a little.
do not be stumbled.
if you think that you would be after reading this post,
highly advised NOT to read this entry.

i dunno.
i feel lost.
lost and trap.
suffocating on the whole world.
at first,
when the votes for the elections were read out.
then,
the HODs votes weren't included.
ok.
BIG TROUBLE THERE.

furthermore,
that's not the only trouble.
i'm devestated and trying to reflect on the way i act in school.
i admit.
that in certain areas,
i'm guilty.
but what did i do to let so many people
dislike me.?
izzit because of me, being house captain?
izzit me and my way of speaking?
me being a christian?
me just wanting to be a friend?
me trying to make a better world?

what's the use of being someone when there are people
who don't even think you're up to it and just
think that you're wasting your time?
what's the use?
i feel so lost.
so confused.
so naive.
to think that i was a better person than yesterday.
to think that most people would support me.
to think that the friends around be would support me
and help me along the way.

to that someone:
"you think i'm dumb?
think again.
so much for the friendship.
so much for me trusting you.
you do the things that i often dislike.
you make me feel as if i'm not appreciated.
you make me feel as if i'm not doing my job
just because you took them away from me.
you think that you're all that.
the truth is,
you're not.
after the years,
you don't even know the things i would do
and the things i would not do.
you mistook me.
you mistaken me.
i'm not as blind,
or stupid,
or naive as you think."

i don't know what to think,
what to do,
what i should do,
what i should say,
how i should react.
when i was coming home,
i was so tempted to step right in front of the vehicial
and just get knocked down by it and hope to die, to
see God in heaven.
however, thankfully,
i'm not going to do that.
my job on earth is not done yet.

one thing i have to say and chant into my soul,
mind, well-being and spirit.

" i am not a world please-er.
i am a God please-er.
if the things i do pleases God and not the world,
so be it.
i live for Him alone and no one else."

i feel as if there are more people,
thinking that i can't do the job,
or think that i'm not a good role model.
well,
i only have to say one thing.
i am not perfect.
so are you.
people make mistakes.
and you people just can't make me give up
what God has planned for me.
nothing is gonna stop me for claiming or taking
that rightful place,
where God has placed me to be.
i don't know where am i supposed to go.
but whatever it is,
i believe that things happen for a reason.
whatever the outcome,
i'll just have to accept and hope for the better.
i'll just have to look and God and i know,
he'll always smile back at me,
never disappointing me,
always supporting me and encouraging me
to do the things which are right in his eyes.

God.
you truely are my best friend.
only you understand me.
God.
please,
give me the wisdom,
strength
and courage,
to let me continue this race.

i will survive.
i will be victorious.

"after a storm, comes a rainbow."

ignyte. =)
his purpose, my generation.

danced for Christ.
7:25 PM

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Dancer for Christ.

Jump Around.

SOMEBODY.GET.YOUR.PRAISE.ON.

Credits

my faith is the thing that keeps me going.
Thursday, February 23, 2006

Dancer for Christ.

Jump Around.

SOMEBODY.GET.YOUR.PRAISE.ON.

Credits

my faith is the thing that keeps me going. Thursday, February 23, 2006

my faith is the thing that keeps me going.
Thursday, February 23, 2006